What would it be like if I trusted myself right now?

If I could allow what is happening to happen… one moment, grief; another moment, happiness; another moment, rage; another, sadness.

When the dominant cultural discourse comes in, can I ask myself, is this true?  Is this true for me?

By “dominant cultural discourse” I mean the messages mainstream society tells me, like:

brush it off;

push through the sadness and the exhaustion;

don’t let yourself feel ‘down’;

it wasn’t meant to be;

this is nature/God’s way of ensuring healthy babies are born, so don’t feel too badly.

Essentially: don’t feel, look on the bright side, keep working, try harder.

Are these messages true? For me?

What would it mean to live now? — not for when I have a baby or IF I have a baby, but now.

What would it be like to live *now* and listen, truly listen to the call of my soul and my heart?


One thought on “Questions

  1. Ecclesiastes is one of my favorite books because it reminds me that there is a time for everything. I think people, society, try to rush us through our pain and our grief, but it’s okay to sit in our grief, to dwell in lament. There is a time to laugh, but there is also a time to mourn, and I think to even acknowledge the right to be where you need to be is incredibly profound.

    Thank you for sharing your heart, dear friend!


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